[He considers the offer to sit down, but he knows from experience it doesn't generally make much difference for him mentally, and he's feeling a little more steady physically now.]
I think I just need a moment, but thank you.
[And a brief pause as he sips more water, gaze directed off to the side.]
I'm... I'm sorry I can't give you better advice, at the moment, regarding what you told me.
[Now that the fog is wearing off, he's starting to feel guilty about how completely unhelpful he was--and is still being--about something so serious.]
[He can feel Ephemera watching him, especially as he becomes more fully aware of his surroundings again, and it's agitating. But he knows it isn't meant that way, and instead of immediately deflecting Lance is quiet a moment at the offer.]
It isn't... It isn't ethical, to tell someone I'm advising about my own issues.
[And that's something he takes seriously; it's different when giving a friend advice, as he does back home, but here he's more formally counseling people and there's a line he can't cross. Of course, that leads to an issue of having very few people he can talk to, but the people here need him to be acting a psychologist and he can't just compromise that because of his own problems.]
[It isn't necessarily and agreement to talk to someone, but it's an acknowledgement of understanding as well as a conformation of the rest of what Ephemera said; everyone definitely has their own things to deal with.
He lets there be silence for another moment or two, before glancing toward his half-forgotten and untouched coffee, before finally looking back at Ephemera directly.]
Do you um... Would you mind if I take this back home? I'll bring the mug back tomorrow or something.
[He makes a vague gesture at the coffee as an indicator of 'this'. He knows he'll probably want the coffee tomorrow, and he certainly isn't going to waste it even if he doesn't.]
[It's to everything and he means it, but despite the offered understanding Lance takes a deep breath and tries to gather himself a bit more; he feels more than a little guilty and embarrassed at the same time about kind of losing it for a moment, and tries to refocus back on the original topic.]
At the Clinic, Rosen is a medical doctor and Pell is a healer; either may be able to help you and will be professional about it.
[So Lance feels okay recommending them to Ephemera for this issue.]
[Lance shifts a little on his feet a moment, finally reaching out to pick up the mug again; what he'd been here to help with seems to have been worked out, so--]
I'm... I'm going to go home and... I don't know. Take a nap or something.
[It's a weak attempt at a self-deprecating joke, as if needing to get some more sleep is the main problem and reason for what happened earlier. He knows Ephemera isn't going to buy it, but that's not really the point.]
But although I won't tell you that you need to do it today, or anything like that, don't put off seeing someone at the Clinic for too long. The sooner the better, alright?
[And he does, at the end of the day. Ephemera knows it's something he's been avoiding, that he doesn't want to deal with. But he's still a Hell Jumper, even know. Embrace the suck. Do what you need to.]
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Date: 2018-01-09 04:12 am (UTC)I think I just need a moment, but thank you.
[And a brief pause as he sips more water, gaze directed off to the side.]
I'm... I'm sorry I can't give you better advice, at the moment, regarding what you told me.
[Now that the fog is wearing off, he's starting to feel guilty about how completely unhelpful he was--and is still being--about something so serious.]
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Date: 2018-01-09 04:20 am (UTC)[Keep it simple. Ephemera tips his head to the side to watch Sweets. Wondering.]
I'm not gonna ask. It's not my business. I don't pretend I'm any good at this either, but if you wanna talk about it, that's fine too.
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Date: 2018-01-09 04:28 am (UTC)It isn't... It isn't ethical, to tell someone I'm advising about my own issues.
[And that's something he takes seriously; it's different when giving a friend advice, as he does back home, but here he's more formally counseling people and there's a line he can't cross. Of course, that leads to an issue of having very few people he can talk to, but the people here need him to be acting a psychologist and he can't just compromise that because of his own problems.]
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Date: 2018-01-09 04:33 am (UTC)[There's a lot he doesn't know. Ephemera shrugs again. Drinks his coffee. It's starting to go cold.]
You got anybody you can tell?
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Date: 2018-01-09 05:31 am (UTC)Yeah.
[He's not sure if he will, because that's another issue, but there are a few people he can talk to.]
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Date: 2018-01-09 02:38 pm (UTC)[He hesitates.]
Everybody's got their shit, Doc.
[And he has a guess at what's bothering Sweets. Just a guess, though.]
Just how it is.
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Date: 2018-01-09 03:43 pm (UTC)[It isn't necessarily and agreement to talk to someone, but it's an acknowledgement of understanding as well as a conformation of the rest of what Ephemera said; everyone definitely has their own things to deal with.
He lets there be silence for another moment or two, before glancing toward his half-forgotten and untouched coffee, before finally looking back at Ephemera directly.]
Do you um... Would you mind if I take this back home? I'll bring the mug back tomorrow or something.
[He makes a vague gesture at the coffee as an indicator of 'this'. He knows he'll probably want the coffee tomorrow, and he certainly isn't going to waste it even if he doesn't.]
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Date: 2018-01-09 04:02 pm (UTC)[Ephemera likes coffee. Likes it with sugar, with good company. Sometimes he even likes talking Sweets and drinking coffee.
Things are complicated. As always.]
's okay, Doc. I get it. Or part of it, anyway.
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Date: 2018-01-10 01:35 am (UTC)[It's to everything and he means it, but despite the offered understanding Lance takes a deep breath and tries to gather himself a bit more; he feels more than a little guilty and embarrassed at the same time about kind of losing it for a moment, and tries to refocus back on the original topic.]
At the Clinic, Rosen is a medical doctor and Pell is a healer; either may be able to help you and will be professional about it.
[So Lance feels okay recommending them to Ephemera for this issue.]
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Date: 2018-01-10 04:28 am (UTC)[He doesn't know Rosen, but that's all right. There's a place to start.]
All right.
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Date: 2018-01-11 01:38 am (UTC)[Lance shifts a little on his feet a moment, finally reaching out to pick up the mug again; what he'd been here to help with seems to have been worked out, so--]
I'm... I'm going to go home and... I don't know. Take a nap or something.
[It's a weak attempt at a self-deprecating joke, as if needing to get some more sleep is the main problem and reason for what happened earlier. He knows Ephemera isn't going to buy it, but that's not really the point.]
But although I won't tell you that you need to do it today, or anything like that, don't put off seeing someone at the Clinic for too long. The sooner the better, alright?
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Date: 2018-01-12 05:54 pm (UTC)[And he does, at the end of the day. Ephemera knows it's something he's been avoiding, that he doesn't want to deal with. But he's still a Hell Jumper, even know. Embrace the suck. Do what you need to.]
See you around, Doc.