[It's happened enough now for Ellie to see the pattern; and it's probably so obvious to Ellie because it was exactly what Dina did for everyone around her, utterly unfailing. Check on others, keep the focus off of herself, take care of other people. Feel settled when they're settled.
Even if Ellie wouldn't be able to explain all the psychological factors and layers of self-worth and re-orienting and comfort that go into that, she recognizes it all the same, and knows that it'll ultimately help Lance if she rolls with it for now instead of calling it out.
So she gives him an assessing glance, that little knowing smile that Dina always fucking hated, and nods back.]
Pretty awesome. Got a job, a place of my own, people checking in.
[She lowers her voice, almost playful.]
Nobody's tried to kill me in weeks.
[It'd be paradise if the safety didn't make her so fucking nervous. It feels like when she first came to Jackson, overwhelmed by suddenly having enough to eat, a warm place to sleep, a roof over her head. No constant danger. No fighting for every breath of survival.]
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Date: 2020-11-29 10:52 pm (UTC)Even if Ellie wouldn't be able to explain all the psychological factors and layers of self-worth and re-orienting and comfort that go into that, she recognizes it all the same, and knows that it'll ultimately help Lance if she rolls with it for now instead of calling it out.
So she gives him an assessing glance, that little knowing smile that Dina always fucking hated, and nods back.]
Pretty awesome. Got a job, a place of my own, people checking in.
[She lowers her voice, almost playful.]
Nobody's tried to kill me in weeks.
[It'd be paradise if the safety didn't make her so fucking nervous. It feels like when she first came to Jackson, overwhelmed by suddenly having enough to eat, a warm place to sleep, a roof over her head. No constant danger. No fighting for every breath of survival.]