[There are no sobs, no loud gulps for air, and aside from a small choked hum in his throat, almost a whimper, Rosen's tears remain mostly silent. He's smothering the possibility of anything else beneath his fingers which momentarily dig into his cheek, pressing into the flesh. He only drops his hand away when he's gathered himself enough to trust his voice. Cheeks still damp and breath lightly ragged he shakes his head, weakly trying to protest against what Lance is saying]
No. No.....no....
[You don't understand. He did this. He fucked it up. He ruined it.]
Even when I was home I was tired and I was short--I would, um, I would yell and then I'd lock myself in my office. As far as t-they knew I didn't want a family.
[Did he? Lee can't remember if he ever had wanted one. Or if it had been another box to tick. His guilt and his memories are so firmly fused together he's not sure what is what anymore]
And then when it was obvious it was over, I couldn't accept it. I panicked. I...I tried to use Danielle's ability to save our marriage. To try and give her mother happiness. But when Danielle touched her mother she just absorbed her hurt. The hurt that I made.
[He drops his face forward into his hands and groans, head now aching at the temples]
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Date: 2017-05-22 11:01 pm (UTC)No. No.....no....
[You don't understand. He did this. He fucked it up. He ruined it.]
Even when I was home I was tired and I was short--I would, um, I would yell and then I'd lock myself in my office. As far as t-they knew I didn't want a family.
[Did he? Lee can't remember if he ever had wanted one. Or if it had been another box to tick. His guilt and his memories are so firmly fused together he's not sure what is what anymore]
And then when it was obvious it was over, I couldn't accept it. I panicked. I...I tried to use Danielle's ability to save our marriage. To try and give her mother happiness. But when Danielle touched her mother she just absorbed her hurt. The hurt that I made.
[He drops his face forward into his hands and groans, head now aching at the temples]
It was me. It was me. All of it.