[Its an awkward start to an increasingly more and more uncomfortable explanation, and its clear Rosen is trying to feel out how to even talk about this in the first place. He's never laid it out. Never put it into a narrative for anyone.]
It....it was me. At first it was fine. It was good. I was just out of medical school, I got hired on to a clinic right away. We moved into the city. But there started being problems. Danielle would go through extremes of emotions and none of the doctors could figure out why. I-I don't want to go through all this but um, it was the early stages of her ability. She's an emphatic contagion, she shares emotions, she can take them and give them but as a child she couldn't control it. How could she? She had no idea what was happening
[He stops to take a drag of breath]
It was the first Alpha ability I had ever encountered. Her mother and I, we're just average. We don't have any enhanced abilities. So i threw myself into the research. Trying to figure it out. At first I knew exactly what I was doing. What it was for. I wanted to help Dani. But it was like a drug. Once I started down that rabbit hole I couldn't, or maybe I just wouldn't, look up. I began to live in my work. Never home. And once the government got wind of my research and they wanted me as head of their research team I was definitely not in the picture.
[He couldn't see it at the time. He had kept his head down and filled with data and statistics. It formed a static that blocked out everything else]
Things at home began to unravel. The stress of having an Alpha as a child on top of the strain between myself and my wife. At some point everything just broke. The divorce was...efficient....but bitter. And then only a few years later Danielle ran way from home. To god knows where. I only found her again about a year ago. I've been absent for half her li-
[He raises a hand to cover his mouth as his voice breaks off, silent tears gathering heavy in his lashes before pooling over and dribbling down his cheeks]
no subject
[Its an awkward start to an increasingly more and more uncomfortable explanation, and its clear Rosen is trying to feel out how to even talk about this in the first place. He's never laid it out. Never put it into a narrative for anyone.]
It....it was me. At first it was fine. It was good. I was just out of medical school, I got hired on to a clinic right away. We moved into the city. But there started being problems. Danielle would go through extremes of emotions and none of the doctors could figure out why. I-I don't want to go through all this but um, it was the early stages of her ability. She's an emphatic contagion, she shares emotions, she can take them and give them but as a child she couldn't control it. How could she? She had no idea what was happening
[He stops to take a drag of breath]
It was the first Alpha ability I had ever encountered. Her mother and I, we're just average. We don't have any enhanced abilities. So i threw myself into the research. Trying to figure it out. At first I knew exactly what I was doing. What it was for. I wanted to help Dani. But it was like a drug. Once I started down that rabbit hole I couldn't, or maybe I just wouldn't, look up. I began to live in my work. Never home. And once the government got wind of my research and they wanted me as head of their research team I was definitely not in the picture.
[He couldn't see it at the time. He had kept his head down and filled with data and statistics. It formed a static that blocked out everything else]
Things at home began to unravel. The stress of having an Alpha as a child on top of the strain between myself and my wife. At some point everything just broke. The divorce was...efficient....but bitter. And then only a few years later Danielle ran way from home. To god knows where. I only found her again about a year ago. I've been absent for half her li-
[He raises a hand to cover his mouth as his voice breaks off, silent tears gathering heavy in his lashes before pooling over and dribbling down his cheeks]